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“…and tired.”

by C. Christian Scott on October 1, 2020 at 5:36 pm
Posted In: Blog, Main

Site looks weird. This is what happens when you take a few days off.

Look, it’s been a rough week. I fudged my way through the weekend without writing, and that’s on me. But Sunday night, ’round 2am, Erin got a call that her mom was evacuated because of the fires in California. The last time this happened to her (not long ago, we’re talking three years), we were out there. She could come stay with us. This time, us being in Michigan now, made it a lot harder. She’s fine now, she’s at home, as safe as she can be. It’s not just Becky of course. I’ve got friends on either side of her that are also in danger. I know the temps have been incredibly high out there, and there’s wind but no rain. And fucking PG&E will gladly drop power any chance they get (and charge you anyways because they know that, after the fires they caused before, they can get away with anything they want) so staying cool in a hot, stagnant house with the windows closed to keep the smoke out has got to be miserable enough, but add to it that you might also have to flee for your life any second is that much more fun.

My mom was supposed to have surgery this week. This would be on one of her knees (the other one was done last year). But it didn’t happen because her blood pressure was too low. Which you know, great, sure, they caught that and didn’t move forward right now. But it sure does show how scary it is that this is a normal thing for her now and that her heart surgery that she desperately needs could be the next thing that doesn’t happen, or that something can go horribly wrong if it does.

So I’m stressed out. And I am happy to sit and say how stressed I am and how writing can take a backseat to it, and really who is this for and so on and on.

But It’s October 1st. NaNo would be in just over thirty days’ time and I’m still no closer to knowing what to do about it. My brain still isn’t creatively happy or productive. Things are not getting easier or better when it comes to me trying to write. So my not wanting to write feels very “excuse-y” in my head and I would rather spend twenty minutes bitching at myself on here than allow any small amount of progress I was feeling i was making to crawl back up my asshole.

Speaking of, I have to call my dad. It’s his birthday.

(I love my dad. Still an asshole.)

So I don’t know what the next few weeks are going to be. Or the rest of this year because, fuck, it’s just a shit pile, right? Some days I’m going to be here, I hope. Others I can see I might not be. I’m not condoning it or forgiving myself for it. I’m just being honest. Not a lot is bringing me peace right now.

Just so long as we’re clear.

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Timing

by C. Christian Scott on September 25, 2020 at 10:52 pm
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I guess I’m going to be 49 soon.

It’s not wearing on me as much as I would normally expect it to. Turning 49, and ultimately 50 next year, is more about the idea that I have another birthday, which I mostly avoid because I’m uncomfortable having anyone make a big deal out of me any more. Erin and my mom always want to buy me stuff, and we’re definitely at a point where spending money should be done for important stuff, and birthday gifts don’t usually fit that rule. Nobody’s got excessive cash this year, so I’d rather avoid the sense of obligations. Plus Erin and I have our wedding anniversary the following week and there’s not a lot of ways to actually celebrate right now with the world still in a sort of holding pattern. Not that I’m sure what to do anyways.

But we hit our two year anniversary of arriving in Michigan this week, and the weather is turning to fall, after one final stab at being warm, we slip to the mid-to-low 60’s next week, and the 50’s after that. I’m hoping for some actual autumn storms too. We haven’t had a dry summer so much as a mild one, so the rain we’ve had hasn’t been incredibly impressive (but better than California’s “No Rain” pattern we’d suffered through for 20+ years). I’m excited to be sleeping with the windows open instead of having to run the air. I’d still love it if we got a little more sound from our river, but the night sounds here are decent. There’s the train that seems to come through right when I go to bed. Erin loves it, I started with tolerating it but have gotten mostly used to it. It’s less obnoxious than Bean and Gaiman wrestling around all night. And as it gets cooler, I’m hoping the cats will want to cuddle up more. Especially Gidget, who has been sleeping on a heating pad for cats that Erin’s aunt sent to us shortly after we moved here. She’s been more a living room cat since Gaiman arrived, but she’s always been a cuddler so I’m hoping the excuse of fall-to-winter weather changes will pull her back into the bedroom with us.

I know that I’m sleeping okay, but I’m waking up and going through the day almost as groggy as I did before I got my sleep apnea machine. It’s probably emotional, maybe also a bit related to my health in general. But other than fighting for breath when I bring in the groceries, I don’t feel any worse than I have for the last few years. I’m not in love with this new normal, but I’m accustomed to it at any rate.

My brain is starting to become less reliable. Not that it was ever in stellar working order. But my ability to just pull actor names or song and movie titles and so on is beginning to wane. Likewise, when I read some memories I posted on Facebook only in the last few years and I mention something seemingly very important to me at the time, like a job I was trying to get, or a story I was attempting to write, I can’t for the life of me seem to figure out what those things were. Obviously they weren’t nearly as valuable as I thought they would be. Whatever that job must have been would have paled to the one I wound up in at Parmatech anyways. And the stories… They all just run together now. They only matter if I actually wrote them down, and too often I didn’t.

I’m trying to pull out some of my old “toys” though. Characters I used to write just for fun. I know I’ve referred to it as a crutch before (is that an insensitive term? I’m going to have to maybe rethink it going forward), but writing for pleasure is still my number one priority at this stage, so it’s better to unload the action figures, such as they are, and play with all my old favorites. It’s more important that I can think of something for them to be doing. And, in most ways, it’s as close as I get to hanging out with some of my real life friends, who I would otherwise no longer get to see.

Okay, short post tonight. Gaiman just crawled up on my wrists and is looking at me like he wants my full attention, not just little nuzzles in-between writing. And he’s too cute for fucking words this one, so I’m gonna give in.

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Spin the rack

by C. Christian Scott on September 24, 2020 at 7:07 pm
Posted In: Blog, Main

I read an article today about a comic creator that suggested some ways to fix the comic book industry (in America).

Basically it calls out that the industry is driven strictly towards an audience of Adult Males that have been buying comics regularly for decades, but that audience is dwindling. And that back in the 70s and before, the audience was Young Boys. So we should be focusing single-issue purchases towards younger readers, with tighter-knit and smaller lines of titles. And then we should aim original graphic novels towards those older readers.

I may be pushing the gender bias here, but I think that’s the way that a lot of people are taking it. Because, commonly and incorrectly, most people think comic readers are almost exclusively male.

There’s a lot of things in the suggestions by this creator that I agree with. I think smaller, tighter lines focusing on either the most well-known characters or the ones with richest potential for stories would be good. I also remember being a big fan of the Showcase and Family books when I was younger, where we’d get some Superman-focused stories, but then ones about Lois Lane and Jimmy Olsen. Or how there was the Nemesis backup in Wonder Woman. There’s a rich, gigantic amount of characters at your Marvel or DC, and a lot of those characters would do well with being explored, so having a smaller line may limit that.

In theory.

But I also think that when we have a large lot of books, like 52 (as a for instance) for a line, it allows for so many titles to fall by the wayside, completely ignored because there’s only so much the audience will willingly and financially be able to support. And it forces the constant relaunching cycles. This month we end Constantine but next month he’s back in an all-new John Constantine: Hellblazer! Same character, maybe even the same creative team. Marvel did this at a couple points without even really closing off the storyline, they just ended on issue 26 or whatever and went to a new #1 the next month and continued where they left off. Over time, that trick had less and less success. You have 60 books to push each month, even with 5 Spider-mans and 15 X-Men books, when you find this iteration of Daredevil isn’t performing, it’s not like you’re NOT going to have a Daredevil book. He’s got a show, he’s had movies, he’s a known commodity. So you have to have Daredevil relaunch AND, to show your big push in how much you believe the character should be important, you give him a Defenders team book and a mini-series that retells his origin again, but with a new villain at the heart of things we’ve never heard of before, and maybe a Daredevil MAX title that has boobs and swears in it.

CHOKE ON THE DAREDEVIL GLUT!! LOVE IT!!

But you take Marvel and you dwindle it to 15 titles, or even 20 titles… That makes it important when you get to see one of your favorites show up, if they don’t have a book (or three) of their own, and they haven’t been used in a while. It also means you don’t have Kingpin being the villain in 14 different stories a year. There’s breathing room. There’s space to use someone else and not have to use everything just to stretch to fill the cavern of comics void.

You also could take a step back and remember when comics moved faster. When you didn’t have six issues, mostly of characters standing (or sitting) around talking. I’m not saying it should all go back to “HULK SMASH!” in every three panels, there can be nuance. But someone started making the Avengers talk and act like they were in “The Office” and it just kind of stuck. And that became the filler for every major crossover for the last ten-to-twenty years too. In my youth, we had the Red Skies crossovers during Crisis, where they tied into the main event in other DC titles by making the sky red. But the titles at least were telling their own stories. Mega-crossovers today are 40-60 books trying to slowly beat you to death with a single, simple and often forced storyline with as much padding as possible. And then the story doesn’t even conclude a lot of the time. It just leads directly to the next event.

An argument is being made that we can’t get kids into comics though because they don’t have the attention spans. Which… I just talked about, if you have Batman and Martian Manhunter waxing poetic on a rooftop over lattes for 18 of your 20 pages, you might not be playing to a kid’s tastes. But I seem to see a lot of kids who have incredible attention spans. They just focus on what is marketed to them. And yes, a comic isn’t going to get the same level of attention as a video game. But look at how much story and action and time and so on is given to someone in a video game for $60 (not including apps here, which normally get paid with microtransactions or ads) verses a comic book with a dwindling page count and a price up in the $5 range. Again because they’ve been marketed to adults who’ve already been sucked into the fandom.

So I get a lot of what’s being talked about right now.

But I also look at the popularity of comics that isn’t being talked about by this creator and the fandom and industry that’s reacting to his advice. And that’s the webcomics audience as well as the OGN bookstore market. Because those things are seen as so different from “mainstream comics” that they get discluded from the conversation entirely. Even though, frankly, they are currently the bigger success, by far.

By success I mean eyes on them. I don’t know what the payouts are for a webcomic these days. Especially compared to a job as a full-timer at DC or Marvel. I do know that more and more we see creators going to the creator-owned stuff at Image and Boom and so on and making a ton more off of their work than they do making stories about Batman and Iron Man and so on. But this last week I saw the subscription numbers for what is, to be fair, I think a very popular web comic. And the creator who has put in the last several years of her life making it has worked as hard, possibly harder, than any of the people in the mainstream (and she does mainstream stuff too). But in a comic shop, with that audience, she wouldn’t get the name recognition. But out there with the rest of the world, especially with the underserved audience outside of the mainstream, like kids and women and so on, she’s likely far better known than anyone who would have once been glorified on a Wizard’s Top 10 list each month.

And I don’t want to say that one way of creating is any better than the other. I really don’t. I love me some super-hero smack-em-up comics. I love the titular characters from the DC and Marvel pantheons i grew up with. Absolutely. But it seems to me that any time those two companies actually acknowledged this other audience even existing, and made some small attempt at getting their attention, they went about it all wrong. Like horribly so. And mostly it was by trying to market these new art styles and ideas and stories to the same people who had been buying the superhero stuff the whole time. Your average Captain America reader isn’t going to be looking for a Squirrel Girl title by one of the creators of Lumberjanes (I may not be remembering that right). It doesn’t mean that book shouldn’t exist or couldn’t have an audience. I just think it was never pitched correctly to the audience that really would’ve taken to it. Even doing digital through Comixology, I don’t think that’s where the people who want that are looking. And in stores it just gets stuck on the shelves next to Green Lantern and Hulk, so if that audience does wander into a shop and is willing to part with five bucks, they might not even spot it.

So I think the idea that change needs to happen to keep the superhero periodical industry going for another ten or twenty years is completely fair and realistic. And stupidly overdue. But I still don’t see the right people talking about it, taking it seriously, and making any meaningful changes to try to make it happen.

Yet.

But I’ll keep pulling for you, guys.

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